TUTORIAL & BLOB

Craig suggested I could play with frame rate of the videos to emphasis the role/eye of camera and express more emotions. I tired to slow down or fast forward a video but the fast forwarded video looked strange and I didn’t feel the effect of speed.

He also mentioned that he felt that the subject and object were equal in the videos, unlike the usual ontology where humans were primary and objects were on command. It reminds me of Lacan’s theory about the Real when the baby hasn’t mastered its own body and doesn’t have control over its own movements. It doesn’t know its body parts belong to it. Then it starts to distinguish between its body and everything else and become aware there exist things that are not part of it. The baby then demands a return to that original sense of non-separation that it had in the Real. But it is impossible, because the union must be broken up for the baby becoming a self/subject.

The inability to distinguish between my body and other and accept the loss of my dependence makes me unable to become a subject/self. I’m only a belonging. I thought of how my body couldn’t react when the support disappeared due to the lack of the sense of the separation between the body and the support and even the rejection of the idea of separation. The role of the subject/object has changed. My body is an object in this situation where it’s got no control over. And other/object manipulates the body. I thought about objects that were supposed to support the body and shape the body at the same time. When the differentiation cannot be realised, the body still keeps the manipulated shape. The role has switched because of my inability to let go of the sense of the unity.