DAY 19 EDIT & HAIR SHOOTING DAY 20 & HOME SHOOTING PLAN

DAY 19 EDIT
HAIR SHOOTING DAY 20
DAY 20 EDIT

Been thinking about the idea of AUTONOMY/HOME for about a week and finally made a decision on the shooting plan. The idea is inspired from my relationship with my mom/dad since middle school, and especially the past months earlier this year I lived with my mom/dad. The conflict of dependent and against has been a serious and unsolvable issue that drives me crazy spending time with them.

At the beginning, I was thinking about the interaction between nails/pins and balloons as I often feel like exploding with my parents. As it’s about home, a house shape would relate better. And I thought about building a small (barbed) wire/pin house with a ballon inside to show the relationship between supporting and hurting. And the function of nails/pins is to fix/settle while gallons are meant to fly, which is like my parents want me to settle down in their way while I’m just not able to.

These are the thoughts and research last month. When I restarted to think about it this week, I felt it hard to relate to balloons visually. I think I heard Michelle saying that it would be interesting to see people in a wire/nail/pin house. Somehow I started to shift my thought from balloons to my body. I think body does relate better than balloons.

Was hesitating to use barbed wire or nails.

I don’t want to show mesh as it looks like a cage/prison too much while I also want to show the supportive element of the house at the same time. I thought of the combination of wool/stuffing and nails which I used in my previous object “IRRESISTIBLE”, as wool/stuffing provides warmth and comfort while nails are harmful.

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Then I saw this wool house, which really inspired me of building a stuffing room.

I spent most of the time thinking about what to photograph. The first two shots came to my mind fast.

  1. A far shot to capture the fluffy/warm/comfy feature of the room. Home is usually thought as a positive existence and my mom does try to show the positive side to public. To me, home is not so “disgusting” when I’m away.
  2. A close-up shot to show the sharp nails/barbed wires. Only when people get close or when they belong there can see the conflicts of home.

I was struggling with other ideas to relate to the relationship between dependent & against. But finally decided on the following shots:

3. Sleep. The supportive side of home is mainly a physical shelter. I want to get a close-up shot with me lying close to nails and looking at them. I need the shelter to sleep in but I cannot sleep in a comfortable way.

4. Step on the nails. I depend on the floor to stand up/walk while the tension between my bare foot and sharp nails brings a sense of “against”, and the difficulty of leaving home for freedom.

5. Shoes. I want to take a shot of shoes in the room to indicate that I do have the choice to leave but it just takes some courage and pain. I’m actually the main reason why I suffer at home.

Was considering about using space in my bedroom so that I didn’t have build a structure. But I still feel like taking a shot outside the room so that it relates better than home seems positive for outsiders. So I decided to build the structure in the kitchen.
Spent half day thinking about and purchasing the materials needed. Also talked to my flatmate who’s studying interior design. She suggested me to buy felt needles to fix the stuffing to the room structure instead of gluing it. Hope it works!